Nov 5, 2009
22:26
met shuh and rong in ny to study, (or rather they studied and i mostly looked on)
got a grasp on 六国论 and basically thats all i did.
but time with squad is always comfort : )
wild thoughtsso nyjc's going to have biometric attendance taking from next year onwards
missed the principal's talk on college plans, but i wasn't supposed to be in school anw.
so nyjc's going to have a (tentative) synthetic field.
i've kind of, got something against non-human attendance taking.
i guess it's inside 梁文福's 《左手的快乐》
one less admin job for the class reps too
and fake grass, with fake soil.
Post modernists reject everything, and we have nothing left to cling onto.
Nature?
then again, we have lost our ability to live in the real nature.
i mean, look, i'm typing on a laptop ! about the degradation of human interaction and the dissolving of nature in the urban ! haha !
we are cynical, skeptical, and we are acutely aware of the negativity that lies beneath every single thing. we are sharply sensitive and yet largely outwardly apathetic.
i find it kind of funny, i find it kind of sad. - mad world (tears for fears)
i had enough of younger sisters screaming at home. but life is like that, i did not ask to be born, i did not ask to be the eldest, i did not ask to be female. they did not ask to be born too. 3 siblings, two accidental lives. does it really matter is life was planned or accidental? will it turn out to be the same?
i bet my parents did not ask to have such a solemn, silent thinking offspring. but the world is just like that and dissembling nature cheats us all.
how awful, Nature being true and dissembling, and us humans, children of Nature, exceeds and excels much further especially in the latter.
spare the rod and spoil the child. even though it has been proven and widely accepted that corporal punishment should not be administered to kids, i still believe in the cane. why? because i had so much of it. i'm not saying that the cane is good and that i turned out good, or better than them, but the cane taught me an extremely important lesson in life - how to shut up.
i really think they should be beaten, harshly. maybe not the elder one, she's probably too old for it. but for the youngest, she obviously doesnt know enough.
they're shouting at each other to shut up now, the irony.
which requires more courage? to live or to die?
why is courage so important anyway?
so sick about all these EQ stuff around my house. so what if you've got all the knowledge and "practices" and "skills" when you dont apply them in life ? by the way, the word "you" used here is plural. and that includes myself.
single child(ren) want siblings. I want to be free.
but freedom can coil back and trap the mind.
shall stop for now. it's not a splitting headache, but a tiny sore which crawls from the left temple, slowly amplifying and fading like a feeble beating heart.
快不快乐,与悲不悲伤。